Thank you, again!

 I've been having this temptation to buy a new phone - moto g, which I resisted initially ( I'd just sold my lumia 620 a couple of months back), only for it to boomerang back even more stronger:-|

And so I'm on the verge of succumbing to my temptation, or rather I should say I was :)... Coz then came a thought so powerful - dunno from where.. 

Started thinking about an orphanage which I've never been to, the one which my friends from IIST visit, the NGO my friend Vivek is a part of..My thoughts wandered to the life of those orphans, those for whom life is harsh, unfair, biased...For whom discrimination is normalcy, with no one to complain to .. no Dad/mom to fall back to, when in distress..those for whom education itself is a luxury, when I complain for lack of pocket money. Those, for whom having a blanket to warm themselves in winter is like a boon  - and here I moan to the insatiable desire for branded consumables . 

As my wandering mind swims back to me, I realise that here I'm, once again worrying about another new smartphone for reasons best left unsaid. 

I can only ask myself, on how much I really deserve of whatever I've got in life - caring people, no serious responsibilities, enough money for necessities, and finally, all the time in this world to perfect what I'm doing now - my Post graduation!

I wonder what I'd have been like, had I been born an orphan, what my thoughts would have been like? What'd have been my priorities? Without mom and dad, whom would I look up to or fall back, during turbulent times..I'd not have got the same kind of education that I've had in this life, nor would I be the spendthrift that I'm.

A few hrs ago, I was calculating the least possible EMI which I'd have to pay if I decide on buying the phone and never once did it occur that if I manage to squeeze out the EMI amount for my dream device, why can't I struggle enough to squeeze out the same amount and make the lives of the ones at the orphanage better? - Until now.

I've been through this once before, years ago..and such thoughts help me in ways countless! 

So, thank you...again!

Flag off...

Its been ages since I last wrote something, that too sensible. I'm not saying this is going to be one, but, the thought of resuming was always in the back of my mind :)

I've pondered over so many stuff. Tried my hand at fiction, spiritual thoughts, and stuff. Much before that, I used to write a personal journal mostly. But those were the days when she was around

, and apparently the jottings were centered on our conversations...more or less.

Gone are those days, and she's happily married to someone else (and has a baby too!), while I'm doing my 1st year in M.Tech now ..sigh !

So this will probably be a boring daily log of activities centred in IIST, my institute. My life and times in IIST !

and I hope to make this as much funny as possible, so that atleast I'll feel like reading them at a later point in time :)

To start off, I gave the same title to my blog as my previous one (Incoherent thoughts of a confused mind), because I still am a confused soul. And the credit for the blog name goes to the recent tendency of mine, to worry too much about the age factor ! As I write these words, it still pains a little inside to realize that I'm 27 already, just three to thirty !

 - hence the name Staggering Twenties !

I googled for the term associated with the fear of growing old - Gerascophobia it is ! So I'm afterall a gerascophobic (I'll put it that way..), since I keep worrying about the fact that I'm on the wrong side of twenties, rather than enjoying what is left in my staggering twenties...

Okay, enough trash for the day..or rather a week, and nothing more is coming up. Thanks for reading this! I hope my writers block will wane sooner and I'll have better things to tell you here :)

Signing off with a mouthful of Listerine !

G'night !